Life is all about choices we make, as you already no doubt have heard and maybe even know. I have decided that I don't need to be around those that aggravate me. Just that simple. In concept anyway....
Arthur and I have played together for years, but it was never a partnership. My choices in songs were ignored, he didn't listen to just about anything I said. I put up with this, rationalizing "It's just him" or "He can't play the kind of songs I like" or "We're raising money for the boy's home and that is more important". All rationalizations and excuses. Fact was it was a factor in my feeling less than worthwhile.
We had a blow up regarding getting a 12 volt battery with converter so could use regular plug in amps. His attitude (according to me) was that the one that my friends spent a week hustling around Pattaya getting the parts and assembling had to be less than whatever he could put together. (They spent about $280 putting it together, and since they have scattered to the four winds, were willing to let it go for half of that. Barely used.)
I said to him "look at it, try it , buy it or don't. Doesn't matter to me." he went on some sort of warpath because I dared to question his wisdom of wanting to search net for it, re-invent the wheel, etc. Blamed in on breakup with Sumalai, my hatred of whatever, sunspots.... I did some research also.
Seems he fits the DSM-IV criteria for Narcissistic Personality Disorder: he is always right, should be worshipped, others are inferior to his greatness, etc.
It is true in a sense that the breakup with Su**** had something to do with this. She has many similar elements to NPD that he has. Hers is tempered somewhat by the fact she has low self esteem and some self hatred. Due in part I am sure to being molested by her uncle (whom I think she identifies me with by age if nothing else and some of her evil behaviors towards me are sort of getting him by proxy). So with her it was so large that his little crap seemed piddling by comparison. But with her gone, his came up on the screen. And I have dealt with them as best I could. Some responses, then just silence from me. He wouldn't listen anyway!
Su*****is much smarter and craftier than he could ever hope to be. I'll go into some of the latest circus regarding her in my next blog.

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